It's about a year since I've never write on this blog. Many things are too complicated to explain.
It's a matter of heart. It is sensitive to talk about it but well, the rice is now porridge.
I was really close to him, I tried so hard to keep everything well. With all our plans and dreams......
Till the appearance of a third person ruin everything...
man is like a cat, although full with food, when there is fish served, he will catch it.
I smell a rat since I got there. if before he did not want me to let him go anywhere alone, at that time he never asked me to accompany him. No more weekend. The reasons are always because of work. I be at the end of one's tether and asked for a break up. No responds for a month and then "sorry" was the word that came out of that poisonous lips.
Forgiveness was what I have that time. But after a couple of months it happened again. No confession. Only anger came out everytime I wanted to ask about it. He said "nothing wrong". What a betrayal. He even accused a friend as the source of trouble.
But it is now over. If only he knows what that third person told his friend...
Hopefully someday he will regret what he has done.
It was really hurt before. Never ending anxiety, sadness and tears till I got sick. Really sick. Lost weight and almost out of my mind.
But many friends of mine support me and tell me that it's better to know it now than later. Many people love me and I cannot let myself drown in this crisis only because one person.
Time will be the healer
Although it is hard for me to forget, but I will never stop trying
28/7/11 (11:57)
