Heart crisis

It's about a year since I've never write on this blog. Many things are too complicated to explain.

It's a matter of heart. It is sensitive to talk about it but well, the rice is now porridge.
I was really close to him, I tried so hard to keep everything well. With all our plans and dreams......
Till the appearance of a third person ruin everything...
man is like a cat, although full with food, when there is fish served, he will catch it.

I smell a rat since I got there. if before he did not want me to let him go anywhere alone, at that time he never asked me to accompany him. No more weekend. The reasons are always because of work. I be at the end of one's tether and asked for a break up. No responds for a month and then "sorry" was the word that came out of that poisonous lips.

Forgiveness was what I have that time. But after a couple of months it happened again. No confession. Only anger came out everytime I wanted to ask about it. He said "nothing wrong". What a betrayal. He even accused a friend as the source of trouble.

But it is now over. If only he knows what that third person told his friend...
Hopefully someday he will regret what he has done.

It was really hurt before. Never ending anxiety, sadness and tears till I got sick. Really sick. Lost weight and almost out of my mind.

But many friends of mine support me and tell me that it's better to know it now than later. Many people love me and I cannot let myself drown in this crisis only because one person.

Time will be the healer

Although it is hard for me to forget, but I will never stop trying

28/7/11 (11:57)

True Love Never Has Expire Date

True love never has expire date?
Is it really exist? or is it just exist in a fairy tale?

Most of you must be astonished when you hear or see that saying. Some of you even wonder either you will ever feel it or not. Don't you?

When we talk about true love, most of you might think about the feeling of a man and a woman who loves each other. They feel the happiness when they are together. Some of you might think that true love is the love of a mother who gives birth a child.
Those might be some parts of true love, but it is not the entire true love that I'm talking about.

True love is not merely words. True love is not just about emotion.......

So, what is true love???

True love is when you never take anything but you keep on giving
True love is when you become the umbrella when the day is raining
True love is when you can bring the warmness in a cold situation
True love is when you can forgive the mistakes of others not forget
True love is when you can give a smile to your enemy
True love is when you never take a granted of anything
True love is when you never ask anything in return
True love is (add as you want when you figure something out)
To bring it up to the real world, you might want to refer to your religion books or bible. I am not going to say anything that I don't know.

So, this is what I know according to my belief: GOD is love.
Anything that he has done from the past until now on, are the reflection of the "Never Expire True Love" that can be followed and implemented by us to Him (Vertically) and to our neighbors (Horizontally).

(06/21/10) 1:00 PM